We have been so blessed this year with our health, jobs, and of course, our beautiful, smart, sweet, healthy, precious baby girl...so I don't want to sound like I am complaining...but I just have to be honest and hope someone can tell me this is normal.
I am so not ready for Christmas this year.
Ever since I was a little girl, Christmas, like so many, has been my absolute favorite holiday. As a matter of fact I like Christmas Eve the very best, because Christmas Day, while spectacular in so many ways, comes and goes so quickly, and Christmas Eve just has so much magical energy and excitement swirling around.
This year, between working full time, and mommy-ing full time, I am completely unprepared for this Christmas. Gone are the days of driving all around, hopping in out of bustling shops searching for the perfect gifts for loved ones. This year it's all online and I'm still way behind on that. We are hosting Christmas Day at our house for 20, and I have barely had time to sit and even start dreaming up a fabulous menu, place settings and table decorations. We are almost ten days from Christmas and we don't have a tree up. I just hung the stockings last weekend. I didn't even find the perfect monogrammed stocking for Stella this year, she's using a sweet one that my Mom had for her last Christmas. I just put my first batch of Christmas cards in the mail but I have no clue when I will get to the rest of them. I just feel horrible about it all.
I want Stella's first Christmas to be magical. I know it will be, and I know somehow I will pull it all together. I just wish that there were ten of me to get it all done, the work, the presents, the parties, the decorating. I know I am doing the best I can, and my time spent reading books, singing songs, giving baths and snuggling after work in between dinner, laundry, bottles, etc. is where I am meant to be. I just need a Christmas fairy to come wave her wand this year. I want it all to be perfect, and I guess I just need to accept that it will be a new version of "perfect" this year.
Can someone please tell me this is normal?